These 2 weeks..

Last Sunday was a busy , warm, sweaty and sticky day. Went for my very 1st tournament(junior) to do refereeing. All of us were nervous. Worried that we would make mistakes. Making mistakes in real tournament is no joke, we could get pelted with rotten eggs. :p We reached the tournament ground at around 8.30am. Change into our referee uniforms which is a white polo-T hand-printed by our Dear Sir. The whole day was freaking warm. All of us were melting.

We got organised into groups of 4 and taking turns to do corner judges and referee. When it's my turn to referee a match, I was very nervous. I was the 1st girl referee to go up. :p I kept trying to make sure I keep my eyes on the contestants making sure there was no foul. I tried to make my voice as loud as can be. I have to make sure my back wasn't facing the head of court. There's so much distraction around, so much to keep in mind. It can confusing. But then, after a few more rounds, I got the hang of it.

The whoel day ended around 11pm after packing and clearing up the place. By time I got home, was already after midnight. So tired. The thing I most wanted wasn't my bed. It's a shower. Freaking sticky.

This coming Sunday tournament (senior), we were also asked to go. I'm more worried about the senior one. Seniors are more aggressive. Lucky, it's not a whole day event as the tournament is a mixed martial arts tournament. Ours Taekwondo will be the 1st up. most probably by early noon will be over. We still have class to teach in the evening. So, it's gonna be a whole day Taekwondo again. Whew...

Time to go play my lovely Sims2. Recently got it installed again. Yippe~~

*~*It's so freaking warm nowadays.*~*

Condemned!

Today we decided to go Pizza Hut@ Far East Square for lunch and to celebrate Babe's birthday. No one attended to us and we were kept waiting at the entrance. Cuterger decided to go in and ask for someone to serve us. This guy said he will attend to us shortly. Waited and waited. No, he didn't attend to us. So, Cuterger and Boy went in again to the manager. Manager said will attend to us shortly. Cuteger told him there's a empty table at one corner. Manager's response was that table is for 6.We have 8. Is it too hard to get another table to join and make it 8? No. It seemed to me that they don't care about the customers. We decided we wait for a while more. The manager walked past right in front of us and didn't even glance up and offer apology and explanation why we were kept waiting. It's so rude. Crappy service. We had enough of waiting and we left. by then my poor lunch time is left with only half hour. The rest of them have more flexible lunch time. Freaking mad.

I'll never go there again. Crappy place!!!

*~*What is call Service? No service is better than bad service.*~*

My Egyptian Zodiac sign

Sekhmet Observant, authoritative, indulgent, moral and witty. Colors: male: green, female: turquoise Compatible Signs: Bastet, Geb Dates: July 29 - Aug 11, Oct 30 - Nov 7 Role: Goddess of war and vengeance Appearance: Lion-headed woman with the sun over her head Sacred Animal: lion What is Your Egyptian Zodiac Sign? Designed by CyberWarlock of Warlock's Quizzles and Quandaries

Depleting Energy, depression... ...

Having mood swings lately. Wonder why... Just unable to pick up the mood. Even if there's thing to be happy about, I still can't cheer up. Wonder why... Just no energy to to be happy.

What is really worth being happy about? Even when I'm typing this entry now, I feel like crying.
It's so horrible to feel this way.
You know what's the best part? I checked my account and the figure I see is depressing. I wonder if I can go for my trip happily, worry-free. Kinda regret going for the trip because I'm certainly not financially stable enough. Not stable enough for holidays, not stable enough for GSS, not stable enough for studies. What the hell... Depressing...

I am quite disappointed with myself. Upset. At this age, what have I achieved? The only achievement I could tink of is the completion of my Diploma. But it's insufficent. Progress was stalled. Oh God... I'm starting to feel lost again. Lost in my own world of depression, mood swings and blues.

Bring me out of this mess. I don't want to stay there.

*~* I need Shimmery Summer. I don't want chilly Winter*~*

Pinkish day

Wore pink to work. My fave color. Hardly wear pink nowadays. Don't know why. Anyway, another day flew past. Was too engrossed in doing work that I missed my fave time of the day. Going home time~

Went to AMK and got myself Photoshop CS2. Just installed it successfully. Finally, my own Photoshop. Yeah~ No need to use my Sis's which is in her laptop and her laptop is seldom home. But my pc starts to lag a little. Lousy pc+mouse.

Maybe my Birthday wish will be to have a gorgeous PC or Laptop of my own(preferably in pink. :p). Just maybe...

A piece of good news to share. Gonna be converted to perm staff in July. Hopefully, alongside with all the other perks and benefits of being a perm staff. Future is looking bright(I hope so...)

*~*Another day has passed without missing the lost ones*~*

Greyish? Yellowish...

Ya, another colored post. Was feeling grey.. Moody... Went to shop for a pair of black pants and sports shoes needed for refereeing day. Was trying out this pair of pants in Bugis. I walked out of the changing room intending to ask my friend for opinion. This lady went right into the room I just used...With my own dress still inside. I didn't realise that at first until I decided the pants don't fit and wanna change back into my dress. She was in there quite a while. There's like 10 empty rooms lor. Why chose the one with my dress and she saw me walked out lor. As she was taking quite a long time in there, a thought wondered into my mind. What if she tried on my dress?! Damn! She really did!!! I was very angry. She left the shop by the time I changed. However, the world is really small. We met in the washroom. She looked very shocked when she saw me and my dress and was practically staring at me. So rude!!! Brainless...

I saw a couple of sports shoes I liked. Puma, Nike and Adidas. Narrowed down to the Puma and Nike ones. But expensive... I don't really wear sport shoes. But I have to get a decent one. I don't wish to buy one that I don't really like.. End up wearing just once and dumped in a corner in the shoe cupboard. Maybe I'll just get the Nike one. Hmmm...

Why is it yellowish? Because of the sunny sun. So warm. Melting already. :p
Went on a 1hour over journey to course training ground. So far. I thought I missed my stop. Luckily, I didn't. Way back home is slightly fast. Tomorrow will be another training day. After that, dinner and off to Taekwondo. Oh ya, maybe I'll go get my shoes? Oh well, we'll see how tomorrow.

Drowsy...Sleepy...

**~*I saw lots of Big, Medium & Baby snails.Cute & Adorable.I wish I can have a Pet Snail.*~**

Green eyed Monster - In a corner

It's scary to turn into a green eyed monster. I don't wanna become one. I don't want. It's all Pandora's fault. Curiousity kills us all. Sometimes, just can't help it. That green eyed monster just creeped up on me. Forced me to be like it. Damn... Struggling, trying all ways to neutralise that greeny thingy... Keep away from me. Gotta tell myself.. Gotta tell myself, I can't have best of the world. I can't... Be satisfied. Learn to be satisfied. Have to be...

GO GREENY EYED MONSTER! GO AWAY! GO STAND IN THE CORNER! DON"T BOTHER ME AGAIN! LEAVE ME ALONE!

It's already near mid-June. My Hongkong trip. Coming nearer and nearer. Although, it's just a short trip. But I guessed I earned it. I'll enjoy myself very much. Definately will. After that, it will be time for a celebration. My Birthday. I always plan my own Birthday party. Always... Nobody can ever surprise me.. Nobody... Hmm.. Maybe someone did.. Just that once. Just once. Rare. But then, I might not have much cash on hand to do much of a party... Maybe already spent most in Hongkong... Oh well... Just see how then... Wonder what will I be planning for my Birthday this year. Eating is definately part of it... But what's next? (sigh) Maybe, hide at home and sleep. Wait for the day to be over and be sad about it? :p Crazy... Who do I wanna ask along? Who will always be ready to come along?

I realised (once again), I need to rely on myself. Depend on myself and no one else. Be it, physically, mentally or emotionally. No one will ever be there for anyone 24/7. Nobody can. It's all up to my ownself... Always the case. Learn to trust, only myself... Just myself. Only myself. No one else. Nobody...

~~Love the overcast sky, the wind that whipped my hair around~~

It's Blue...So Blue...

It's a blue blue start for the week. Why does it have to be Monday Blues? Argh... I don't like to feel blue, nor green, nor yellow..etc. When I went work today, I don't even feel like smiling or talking. I just wanna do my work quietly, peacefully and wait for 5.30pm. I don't know why. I just can pick up my mood.

I used to go work happily although I dislike my company's management. It's the environment that I was placed in. It feels like a 2nd home. I dare say, most of the time I looked forward to work. I dare say, I put a lot of pride and efforts into the work there even though the work seems so unimportant and useless to my future career.

But now? The pride and effort seems lesser. I don't know why. The work now is pretty helpful maybe crucial to my future career. But my heart doesn't seems to be around at most times. Why? The difference is noticable. I wasn't this careless at work. Somehow, I kept making careless mistakes. It shouldn't be happening. I'm so disappointed in myself...

*~*My Angels & Fairy Elves.Please Help me find my cheerfulness (Happiness?) once again*~*