Plain but smooth sailing, not...

It's near the end of 2008.What has been achieved so far? I can't think of significant achievements. Disappointment more like it. Not doing well in studies. Not stable (still) yet financially. Career advancing to where? The common stuff we mere mortals are always worrying about. The usual annoying stuiffs that I am always worrying about. When can I stop worrying about all these and slow down to look at the sceneries? No. No time. No time.

Colours. Where are the colours of life? How can I let these annoying issues bother me and interupt my life? Trying. Trying. Well, the Earth will still turn and life goes on.

*~*~*Twinkle Twinkle Little Stars. Can you lend me some sparkles to add to my life?*~*~*

Stress days to come...

It's 10.07am now. 9 more hours to exam. I have yet to fully digest the notes. Unable to concentrate. Don't know why. It's always seems that I have to study last minute. Seems like losing the interest and motivation to study. Lost sight of my goal.

Whn I started this course, I dreamt. Dreamt of wearing my graduation gown and mortar board. Graduated beautifully. It was part of my goal. To reach there and celebrate. What about now? It seems so distant... So far away that I could hardly reach...Just like the stars in the sky. So sparkly and attractive, unreachable...

I started thinking, why did I put myself through all these? Ambitious. To remain competitive in the society. Lots of people have said, no qualifications is alrite. Still can earn big bucks. How true is that? I don't feel safe without one. Yet, even after securing one, the job isn't as good as one that don't require high qulification. How depressing.

Losing confidence in studies and work. How long can I last before I burn out... Just celebrated my 26th Birthday. But what's there to celebrate? Celebrate that I'm not any younger? Celebrate life?

Trying to work back on track. Straying off further and further away. Where is my guiding light? Has it dim out on me? Lost hope on me?

*~*~*Give me back my life.*~*~*

Stress level climbing higher & higher...

I'M FEELING SO STRESSED NOW... SO STRESSED... HOW LONG CAN I HOLD BEFORE I BREAK DOWN? I HAVE NO IDEA...

DID I MAKE THE WRONG MOVE RESULTING IN TODAY'S SITUATION?


*~*~*HOW TO SURVIVE IN THIS MODERN COMPETITIVE JUNGLE???*~*~*