Does that number matters?

 Hi there.

Has it been a fruitful year so far? Counting blessings, yes. Things more or less stabilized but there is always a constant fear. Fear that when things become good they will get taken away again. Have been pondering,. At this stage of life, what are my life goals? Mid-life crisis? Maybe. Sure there were happy times and then you wanted more. Is it too greedy to want more?  

Encountered a situation that I had been through before. The gap is too wide but life is too unpredictable to worry so much right. Live and enjoy those moments so there will be no regrets. How often can you find the matching frequency? Loads of people living life wearing masks. Who is really real? How can you tell who is true? Ignorance is bliss and they say the truth hurts. 

Falls into darkness every night and wakes up to new start of the same routine in day. Lost passion in life. Did I left it in the past? A little deer asked who can help me find the passion and motivation in life. Do I know the answer? There is always just myself who can help myself. It is nice to have a little deer. For how long, no one knows. But I am glad to have one for now. 

Do you know what you want in life? I know I wish to win that lottery jackpot and I can tell you what I can have in life.

~*~* May Lady Luck smiles at me*~*~