Today's a bit...

Today.

Wake a bit late. Weather a bit nice. Train a bit packed. Work a bit relaxed. Lunch a bit full. Rain a bit heavy. Wind a bit strong. Hair a bit wet. Pathway a bit flooded. Lift a bit slow. Aircon a bit cold. Work a bit more. Office a bit noisy. Sky a bit dark. Mood a bit good. Time a bit fast. Footsteps a bit slow. Que a bit long. Walkway a bit wet. Mall a bit packed. Friend a bit surprised. Wait a bit long. Train a bit slow. Me a bit sleepy. Music a bit nice. Home a bit near. Dinner a bit late.

Blogging a bit bit...

A night of dinner and dance

After work, went to Grand Corpthorne Waterfront for my company's D&D. Actually a bit not wanting to go. Not much familiar people. Just my fellow colleauge who's also stationed in ML, and my OEs and boss. That's all. Oh add in some service engineers. Din manage to take much photos.. Just some plain shots. Saddening. No kakis... So not as fun as it could have been. The entertainment wasn't too bad though. Lucky draw was unlucky. Won nothing at all.

Plenty of unfamiliar faces to see. The food was not too bad. Had a few drops. The dance part was like going clubbing, which I din join in. The atmosphere not high enough. The MC was good. But still not enough to make me party with them. Basically just went there to see see look look and eat. That's all.

After the night of D&D ended, I took a cab home. And zzz zzz zzz zzz..........

Piecing up the fragments of life

I managed to pick up a fragment of my life that I left behind sometime back. Yes, I dreamt of it before. It's Taekwondo. Finally. I'm back. But then, bit rusty. Been away for too long. Muscle aching. :p It's gonna get better though. It feels good to be back. Once my fave sport. Now, it is still. Working to get back in track and go for my grading in December. I must do well and pass the grade.

Another piece of fragment I would love to pick up again will be Dance. But, maybe no more chance. Can always go for some other dance classes. But it's not the same anymore. Not with the same people, not in the same place. Nothing is the same anymore. Anyway, can't spilt anymore attention now. Will be very tiring. I don't wanna burn out before I reach my goal.

Someone said something about having goals. Yes, goals. But not too many of it at one time.
For now,
Goal no1: Finish my studies with flying colors.
Goal no2: Work back into shape in Taekwondo( also keeping fit)
Goal no3: Find a more promising job which can evolves into a promising career( but only can be done after I reach fulfil Goal no1)

These are most probably just short-term goals. What about the terms ones? Hmm... Maybe the same old thing, maintain career, get married. have kids...etc

Really feels good to be living.


=-=-=-=-Freedom to Fly, Fly to Freedom-=-=-=-=

Mental distress

Someone is intentionally causing mental distress on me. Something ended up bitter. Someone turn very very bitter. Causing that bitter bugger to become crazy. Sick. You are the one who is sick! Not me! I'm moving on with my life. Why do you have to come and upset my life? Why can't you just let me go? You are the one who forced me to go. Now I have left for good, you came to regret it. Do you know it's too late? Nothing you do is of use. You are just trying to destroy what you can't have anymore. You are looking for trouble. You will get into trouble if you don't stop. Maybe you will say you not scared. Well, up to you. I have already fore-warn you.

You know who you are. I don't say names in my blog. Please go and live your own life. Don't waste anymore time and do all this childish and unnesscary actions. You are not a kid anymore. Please grow up.

BACK OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I had a dream

I had a dream. A dream of some past activities I used to be active in. Have passion in... ... How can I give up one my passion? I don't know.

The dream goes like that. I dreamt I went back to my TP taekwondo team to train. Strange enough, suddenly, I just don't know how to tie my belt. Somehow just can't. I have to go ask someone else. But then still don't know. Suddenly my belt become my ballet wrap skirt. End it even worst.

Taekwondo and dance. Both. I was once very active in. Hardly miss my classes for no reason. I missed them both. Yes, I know I can always go back. Things wouldn't be the same as before. Things changed, people change. If I don't change, I can never go back.

Whenever all these things came back into my mind, my regrets came pouring out. How I wish I can go back and change the past actions I did. I know it can never be done. I can only do better in present and future and not repeat the same mistake twice.

Journey-By Angela

It's a long long journey. Till I know where I'm supposed to be.
It's a long long journey. And I don't if I can believe.
When shadows fall and block my eyes, I am lost and know that I must hide.
It's a long long journey. Till I find my way home to you.
Many days I've spent. Drifting through on empty shores.
Wondering what's my purpose. Wondering how to make me strong.
I know I will falter, I know I will cry. I know you'll be standing by my side.
It's a long long journey. And I need to be close to you.
Sometimes it feels no one understands. I don't even know why I do the thing I do.
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul.
Will you break down these walls and pull me through?
Cause it's a long long journey.
Till I fell I am worth the price.
You paid for me on calvary beneath the stormy skies.
When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes.
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control.
It's a long long journey. Till I find my way home to you.

Thoughts.

I drew open the blinds and look out of the window. I see the sky bright and sunny. I see the cars running like about. I see buildings from afar. I see dark clouds creeping in. I see raindrops seeping down.
I feel in my heart, droplets of tears seeping through. Stabs of pain shot through. Felt this before. Whay was I bitten once and not shy twice? Not shy thrice? As stupid as can be.

A happy occasion

Today, Happy occasion. What occasion? Had me spent quite a bit. But it is so worth it. It brings joy and laughter, happiness and memories.
I celebrated my 24th birthday in advance with my colleauges. They are so sweet. Got me a very thoughtful and useful present. Really had an enjoyable time with them. The dessert, Mango ice was huge! Should have taken a picture. They also bought me a sweet pink strawberry cake. I don't like strawberry cake. Maybe because it's pink, that's why. Hahaha.. But I will eat it, all of it. I didn't actually make a wish. :p Wouldn't be too late anyway. The actual day is not here yet.
Some of my other friends who weren't there were glad and happy that I enjoyed myself. Finally, a smile. It really lits up my day. It really does.

What to write?

Bene updating diligently lately. Looks like I'm free. Actually not that I wasn't before. It's just that I have no idea what to write. For the past few weeks. Things had been a little chaotic for me. Things were shaky. I was moody. I needed a friend. But there was none. Everyone was just too preoccupied. Wandering around at some place. Felt lost. Have I found out which way I should go now? Maybe. I don't know. Don't know means lost. Just don't know... Haiz...
I just don't know how to continue... ...

Some thoughts worth thinking about...

Yesterday. Finished work. Went to look for my textbook so that weekend can do homework. Strange. Just couldn't find. Looks like have to go school to get it.
Reached home. Rest a little. Already dated somone out. :P Looking forward to that. Daydream in the shower.
Finally got to meet up. A guy I know from a friend's wedding. Interesting. My friends should get marry and invite me so that I can know more people. LOL! Stupid logic. :p Ayway, he's a poor thing. Tired after work and gotta spend his precious time with this silly girl. Hmm... He's nice. Seems to be so. Wonder how is he actually really like. He likes to say "stupid", "crap", "Attitude"....etc Building on more. Maybe can make it into a book of his fave words. Hahaha. :p Lame. Well, it's fun to be occasionally lame. At least it adds some colours to life.
Spent time sitting down in the beach chitchatting. Hear the sound of the tides coming in. Rustle of leaves. Quite peaceful.
He got tired and took a little eye-shut. :p He look cute sleeping. :p Bit gong gong+blur blur. LOL! I know he is tired and it's getting "early". Felt bad that he can't get his proper rest. Maybe next time shouldn't ask him out until so late. Not nice. He look stern when he doesn't smile and when he's concentrating on driving. Bit scary leh. :p He says it due to work. Hmm.. Next time make more jokes and make him laugh. He looks better when he smiles. :D
Said that should make goals, short term, middle term and long term. Hmm... How short is short? How medium is middle? How long is long? Short term: Finish my diploma with flying clours. Middle t erm: New job and work towards gaining financial stability. Long term: Get happily married and have kids. Hahaha. How's these goals? Hmm... The 1st two looks good to me. The last one... We'll see lah... For now nothing matter more to my studies. Work actually don't really sux. It's just the management. if it's that bad, why am I still there? Considering my studies to my one of my top pirority, work has stable hours and near school. Had to stay on for time being. A new job might be far and hours unstable. I don't want to do anything to jeopoardise my studies. No way! Nothing is gonna be stopping me from studying. When I took up the course, I already had this thought and aim to achieve distinction. I must and will work towards that. Those who had look down on me and had doubts of my capability, We'll see. See who gets the last laugh.
Talking to sensible people make one a enlightened and sensible. Such people had appeared in life. I'm glad to have them in my life. They matter to me. Support and encouragement and so important to me. Someone without self confidence and hard determination, it matters a lot. Gotta be more independant. Have to be and must be, will be. Working towards that. There's so many things that I need to work on improving. Need changes. Need a more worthy and meaningful life.
Life's short. Cherish it.

When will you get it?

Hey you! When will you ever get it? Simple English. Leave me alone! Don't disturb me! Can't you understand? I don't want to have anything to do with you anymore! Just LEAVE ME ALONE!! I had enough. I'm trying to get on with my life. I've shut the door between us. Please don't don't don't attempt to break it down. It will never be possible anymore! I have my own life to live. Go away!! Away!! AWAY! AWAY AWAY!!!JUST GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Colors fly? & a little bit of light?

Yup. Colors do fly. At least me for, on today. Got the results. Not too bad. Wasn't expecting, but was praying and hoping in my dreams that colors fly for me. And it did. You are supposed to reap what you sow right? Hmm.. I did plant pretty hard. I put in time+efforts+sweat and $ for it. So it should fly a little for me isn't it?
Anyway, I'm starting to plant again. When it's time to harvest, I hope for the best. Well, provided I put in nothing but the best. I'll keep my fingers cross for now.
Things might be looking good for me. Maybe the silver linings is starting to show a bit. Miss Lady Luck is starting to noticed that she has neglected me for a while. Hope she smiles a little more for me.Maybe she is smiling more. I'm starting to see who are my friends,who does care. But I don't have a good eye. I often take the bad as good. Naive is it? I'm not sure. At this age, should be getting smarter. Maybe some other stuff I am, but people.. Hardest to understand. Most dangerous species.
Actually, I don't know how to see or know who is really good, who is really bad. I go with my feelings. I lead with heart sometimes depending on situations.. Affairs of the heart can seldom me deal through logical thinking, at least for me.So, well.... Did illogical stuff and get hurt. How stupid can I be? Could be even worst. Have I waken up from my fairyland dreams? I really don't know. Why can't the world be nice? Whay people have to hurt each other? Pandora, you really shouldn't have open that god-damned box you know. Look at what you have done to mankind! Destruction...
Oops! Getting further away from my topic. Hmm... Should be kept light hearted and happy. After all colors can fly is a good thing...