Guilty as charged.

I'm guilty for the following charges.

1) Falling for two guys at the same time.
2) Unable to make a choice and hurt all 3 of us.
3) Having to make a choice and hurt 1 of them.
4) Unable to let go of some stuffs.

In the end, the one got most hurt is myself. I really don't wanna let things go this way. But I gotta make a decision. Things just can't go on like that. I'm sorry. I know you'll be reading this. I'm sorry. I disappointed you once again. I'm really sorry. No one knows how much it hurts for me to choose. He's leaving and I don't want him to go. But neither do I want to lose you. I'm being very selfish here I know. But I really don't what to do.

You have been a wonderful guy. Always understanding and caring. Full of wonderful ideas and surprises that put smiles to my face. Always encouraging. I don't deserve either of you.

I'm equally in love with you two. I'm equally comfortable with you two. I don't know how to explain. I can only say sorry. I have chosen him over you. A painful decision made. I don't wish to lost you. But I hope this decision brings peace and relief to all.

The stuff that are with you. You hold on them first. I'll find a day and bring them back. I don't wanna take up your space, time and mind. I have to let you go... ...

I'm really sorry.. Always apologizing. I just felt I let you down. I'm sorry... I hope my decision is right... You can get over this can't you? You are always the stronger one. *hug* I'm sorry... ...


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