Ramblings of a conceited and Superiority Complex Being, Mr. Alien

Night Elf says:tell me...

Night Elf says:how do i actually am protraying myslf?

Alien says:how blunt do you want me to be

Alien says:?

Night Elf says:AS BLUNT AS CAN BE

Alien says:You have no direction in life

Alien says:you live day by day, looking forward to going to class (which is a good thing, but sometimes for the wrong reasons)

Alien says:You're loyal to your TKD group/students (which is good, i guess)

Alien says:but you're more concerned about dancers not doing enough en pointes than finding a proper job

Alien says:you take pride in your job (which i admire greatly), but i think you can do better

Alien says:little things get you down

Alien says:you need to prioritize your life, deal with shit and pick yourself up when you're done

Alien says:no one's going to baby you forever

Alien says:i think a little more ambition would be good for you

Alien says:you could go a long way

Alien says:i think you're pretty capable, if you put your mind to it

Alien says:that's why i think the site supervisory job is good for you

Alien says:it might not be what you want, but it'll give you experience as a team leader

Alien says:you know your supervisor sucks.

Alien says:so be the good supervisor, inspire your team

Alien says:this role should also help you build up more character

Alien says:you'll probably be backstabbed up the wazoo

Alien says:ok done

Night Elf says:so long ah?

Alien says:probably still got sommore

Alien says:but can't think of it offhand

Night Elf says:I have no direction in life because I often stood at a cross junction and have no idea where to head towards.

Alien says:you don't have to justify anything

Alien says:that's just how i see you

Night Elf says:i do live day by day, bcoz i dare not plan too far ahead coz if thigns dun go as planned i'll be very disappointed.

Alien says:things will always go wrong! but that's not the point of the plan

Alien says:but you're more concerned about dancers not doing enough en pointes than finding a proper job----> no link lor...

Alien says:plan is to give you direction, you just have to have enough character to fix the problems and/or change the plan!

Alien says:what do you mean by no point?

Alien says:of course there's a point

Alien says:it makes you look flakey/ditsy

Alien says:like this person has nothing else better to do with his/her time

Alien says:there are better things to occupy your time/mind with

Night Elf says:HAIZ..

Night Elf says:anyway, B's character is far more stronger than I am.. she more suitable to be site supervisor

Alien says:yes she is

Alien says:but that's not the point, is it?

Alien says:you can be born strong...or you can learn to be

Alien says:you're given the opportunity to learn. why dont you want it?

Night Elf says:i din say i dun wan it.

Night Elf says:things haven't been finalise yet

Alien says:you seem reluctant

Alien says:that tells me you don't want it

Night Elf says:i am hesitating.

Night Elf says:other factors to consider too.

Alien says:i'm sure

Night Elf says:THANK U.

Alien says:for?

Night Elf says:THIS WHOLE CONVERSATION..

Alien says:heh

Night Elf says:i post all these in my blog can?

Alien says:that's the other thing i don't get.

Alien says:the need to blog

Night Elf says:write to no one is easier talking to someone..

Night Elf says:a fustrations venting outlet

Alien says:dammit...

Alien says:i'm trying to think of a word

Alien says:but i cna't think of it

Night Elf says:wat word... meaning?

Night Elf says:use to describe wat?

Alien says:myself

Alien says:wanted to put it as a topic for your entry

Night Elf says:lol.

Night Elf says:oh..

Night Elf says:okok.

Alien says:dammit

Night Elf says:dun worry. no names will be mentioned.

Alien says:forgot the word my ex gf said i was

Alien says:no lar

Alien says:it'll be fun

Alien says:ramblings of a conceited and super something person

Alien says:lol

Night Elf says:lol.

Night Elf says:i dun wanna say names in my blog.

Alien says:never say names what

Alien says:so how accurate am i?

Night Elf says:pretty accurate. accurate until i almost turn defensive

Alien says:heh

Night Elf says:yeah~~

All these posted with the permission of Mr Alien.
How more accurate can one be?
That is really me..
Really me?
Really me...

Spare some time for some thoughts

The nearer CNY is, the less excited I am.

Remember when we were kids, how excited we are about CNY? New clothes, goodies, gambling and of course the highlight of CNY, angbaos.
ALthough now, nothing has change, but as I get older, I felt nothing to be excited about CNY. Just another holiday away from work.
Does everyone feels the same too?

Springcleaning. New stuffs. New hopes.. Everything new. As if really everything new...
It's just the lunar year new. Everything else is the same.

Talking about catching up with friends. These few months, made quite a number of new friends and found long lost friends.
People come and go. People change.
I so miss the times when I was still in school, when I was still a girl waiting tables.
Those moments can only be seen in my dreams and mind.
Some are lost and never to be found again.
Time is so slippery. You cannot never clasp it tight enough.

I know we shouldn't keep looking back. We walk forward not backwards. But can't help it also.
Mind just wandered to the past now and then.

OMG! Am I hearing things? I just heard some one 'psss' behind me. I'm all alone in the room. There's no one outside.
WHO!!???

V-Day is coming too...
My V-Day celebration? OT at work lor.
Other than this, hmm... Oh. I ordered some cheerful pretty mini chocolate cupcakes to be deliver to my office. I'll be giving them to 2o colleauges. :)
Cheery cupcakes.. Yummy.
Some would say, I'm so sweet. Some would say I'm wasting money. Could have put the money to better use.
Don't be jealous ok? It's my money. I spend it the way I like. I earned it myself. I deserve to spend it the way I like. So, don't come and nag at me on how to spend my money.
Alrite, so what if I complain I don't have enough? I'm not borrowing from anyone. At most I work more OT lor. I'm not asking for advice, nto asking for help. All I need is a pair of listening ears.. That's all.

I hate it when people try tells me how to live my life.

I...

Today at work. I bought a pretty box with 3 pink glass angels in it from Precious Tots. They are too pretty to resist. My colleauge's comment was that, they have no expression. Coz, just the figure only wat. But, they seems to be asking me to buy them which eventually I did. I chose the angels over the fairytale horse carriage which I hope 1 day my Knight will come pick me up with.

I told a colleauge if I put too much deco on my desk, I'll have a hard time bring them home when it's time to leave the place. She said she doesn't want to give me any farewell card. Seriously not.
I'm so touched. I believe, when the time comes to leave, I'll surely cry. Crybaby. Ya, but I seriously can't bear to leave the place. Not because of the physical place itself, it's the people in it.

The bond is there. Been through many months of breakfasts, Monday blues, Weekend happiness, lunches, OT, gossips and chitchats..etc... We came a long long way together.

My contract is ending. I'm hesitating. Renew or not renew? What if the pay is really shit? I have to start all over again if I leave. New place, need to adapt once again... So tiring... So tiring...
Will I lose contact with the people here?
I don't want...

Tears well up in my eyes, swimming swimming...
I can't bear to leave you guys.