Wonder why Wonder how

2010 hasn't been exactly smooth for me. I wonder why... Was it decision making failure? Or planning failure or failure to plan? I wonder how to make things smooth and straight... I cannot take it much longer. I feel depressed... No no.. Depression. Please go away. I don't have time for you. Go away.. Stay away.. Don't ever come back... Please...

CNY & VDay are just round the corner. I can't feel the atmosphere anymore. Is it because of age?Is there nothing to look forward to anymore? Heart felt cold once again. Never felt so cold before... Lost the capability to feel again... Help.. I need help... Someone. Anyone... Help me.. Save me from the cold dungeon... I don't know how long can I stand it.

*~*~*一个冰冷的世界，一颗冰冷的心*~*~*

失去的不再回来？

说失去的就不再回来。是真的吗？梦想，目标，执着，意力，坚持，是不是不再回来呢？
该如何是好？ 开始迷失了方向。一路走来碰见了很多诱惑和助碍。好辛苦。有时后真觉得太多选择不一定是件好是。选择把简单负杂化。。。

需要找回失去的方向。。。

这一刹那，心好酸，好酸。。。

神啊， 救救我吧~