Roller Coaster ride

I'm scared of roller coaster rides. My mood had been going like a roller coaster ride. It's scary. It scares me.

I'm starting to learn to let go the past bit by bit. I hope the ghosts of the past don't come back and haunt me. I have already known letting go is the only way to be happy. But knowing it and actually doing it, is another story. What is done cannot be undone. Have to learn to accept and move on. This is Life.

I have believed that there wouldn't be any reason to smile again. Someone, anyone, is welcome to prove me wrong.

Work is pretty ok though. Failure in r/s, success in career? Maybe? Maybe not. Studies might not be too smooth. I have to defer the next trimester. I'll take longer to graduate. I hate to have to do this. But there isn't much choices. Well, I guess I'll have to take it as a break. School holiday for me.

Life is unpredictable. I must learn to enjoy every single day. When the Day comes, I'll go knowing I've tried my best in this life.

*~*~*Accept it. Learn from it. Move on.*~*~*

Awful feeling wrapping around me...

I felt so awful lately... Everything is so emotionally overcharged. I'm burning out... It feels so terrible. Could hardly breathe... The awful feeling tighten around my throat squeezing all the breath out of me and pushing all the tears out threatening to overflow...

I wanna find a corner to hide. Just myself. I wanna cry out loud. Just alone. Too many things happening together and over the years, every now and then, this and that adds on... Just build on and on. I'm feeling so tired... So awful...

*~*~*Please make all these awful feeling go away*~*~*