Reluctance...

The day is coming soon. No matter how reluctant I am, I have to make a choice. To stay or not to stay.

You guys make it hard for me to leave willingly. I know. When it's time to go, it's time to go.
I made up my mind and I hope to stick to that decision.

If it's good enough to satisfy me, I'll stay.

If the outside is more attractive, I'll go.

Shed a few tears. Say good bye and we'll meet up again other day.
It should be this way isn't it?

It's been one full year.
Seen lots of changes here and there.
Heard lots of promises here and there.

How will things go from now?

The day is getting nearer and nearer.
But I feel nowhere near to the future.
It's getting scary.

I feel so weak.
Where have all that strength and courage go?
I'm scared.

You don't understand. Who can I talk to?
Just talking aimlessly to the cyberspace.
That's just it isn't it?

Action do speaks louder than words.
What kind of actions to take now?

I'm just sitting back and wait.
Was told there's 2 types of people: 1st kind wait for things to happen, 2nd kind make things happen. I belongs to the 1st kind.
Yes, I do have a choice. To make things happen. I have no confidence.
I just don't dare to...
Just don't dare to.
I don't dare to...

People are born to make choices and decisions.
I hate to do both...
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