Murphy's Law says... ...

Everything seems to become blurry to me. I don't know what I am doing though I know what I should be doing. My 'working factory' starting to stall. (Cough..poof...sssss...) Feel sick & tired.

Where did my passion lies in? Suddenly, I have no idea. Some years ago. I see myself as a poor girl working like hell and studying very hard. Struggling. But it feels good. The satisfaction of doing a wonderful job drives my motivation to work happily almost everyday. The goal that I had set seems nearer each day. Life was pretty good then.

A new job and a new goal drives me on again. Although suffered humiliation, I kept quiet and pushed on and on. Reaching my targeted goal. I must not give up. And I reached that goal.

Here I am. Halfway through that goal... Somewhere, it wasn't what it seems to be. Is it really my goal? Life isn't that tedious already. But, why is everything going the wrong way? My brain is not working well. I have no idea what it is hinking about. I'm no longer that sure where I'm heading...

Where is that passion and determination? That drive, that motivation. Did I set too high a goal? I don't believe so. Then where did it went wrong? Where?

*~*~*Where is my guiding light? Have you dim on me again?*~*~*