Insomnia

It's 4.06am. I still can't sleep. Too much thoughts troubling my mind. I can't sleep. I ponder and wonder. I think and worry. I question and ask. Is it or is it not? Can I or can I not? Should I or should I not? Will I or will I not? Would it be or would it be not?

It should be the right move isn't it? If it is, why am I so troubled? What am I worrying about? Aren't that all unnecessary? Why think about these when it has not or maynot happen? Why make my poor brain work over-time? I must be crazy giving myself all these pressure. Isn't life stressful enough already?

I have to learn to slow down and relax. If only situations allow... I will... I just tried to encourage myself to cheer up previously and here I go again. Sinking into the dark pit of worries and sadness. Someone, please fill up the pit for me so that I will not fall into it again if I did not watch my steps. It's a terrible place to be.


Sleep. I need sleep. Decent sleep. Peaceful sleep. Knock me out please....


*~*~*To be or not to be. Who gets to decide?*~*~*