The first one.

How should I start? This is the very first blog I have. What should I say?
Woke up from nightmare full of flying cockroaches. Makes me jumped up from sleep. Everyone seems busy today. Even the sky is busy with gloomy clouds and shining sun. Will the rain come?

Rain. It always makes me think. Think of the past and about the doubtful future. Do I create my own future or is it already been set for me? Can I reset if if i dun like? Or can I delete and recreate again?

The past. It's been deeply set and there's no way to erase it other then have a serious concussion and forget everything. Or fall into a coma fill with dreams that I want and never wake up again. Easier said than done. So many things left undone and unsaid. How to let go?

Things are so dark now. When will the silver linings show?

How long can I hold on?

Am I on my own?